Themes and Thoughts (I'll never be the same)

It is crazy that in a few hours it will be 2015.  2014 will be over.  I am not entirely sure how I feel about that.  I can say this though:

I'll never be the same.

I know, cheesy, but really.  2014 brought some of the hardest moments I have ever experienced.  

In January, when I sat in Relief Society with my mom, we sang, "I believe in Christ" This part stood out to me: 

I hadn't picked my 2014 theme yet. 

Side note:  I started choosing a yearly theme in 2013.  2013's theme was "Come what may and love it" which proved also to be extremely fitting.  

Back to Relief Society.  I hadn't picked a new theme yet and I was hesitant to let go of the one I had come to love from the year before.  This line, however, brought tears to my eyes.  I was preparing to leave my family and it was becoming more and more real. The idea that since I believe in Christ, I can handle whatever comes seemed perfect.  And, it fit hand in hand with my previous theme.  2013 I learned to be happy.  2014 I was choosing to exercise faith.  

By the time I left on January 29th, I thought that the trials of the past year, of health struggles especially, were over.  I thought that I would be relying on the Savior to help me get through slammed doors and companion struggles and that was pretty much it.  I was so wrong.  As the days progressed, I realized that this theme was going to help me through more, sure it helped through slammed doors, but it helped through homesickness, through scary days at Duke, through having my heartbroken over someone I just met not being able to be baptized, through biking through cold and rain and up hills, through intense conversations and lessons, through more scary days at Duke, through ending my mission early, through being home and then through returning, through transfers and more doctors visits.  

But hey, I made it.  Because I believe in Christ, so come what may.

Please don't read all of those "throughs" as depressing.  My year was incredible.  Honestly and truly.

I relied on my Savior and I grew.  I grew and changed and I honestly couldn't be happier.  I met incredible people, I relied on their strength, I made memories and more memories.  I developed a relationship with the Holy Ghost.  I felt my Heavenly Fathers love.  I learned the importance of covenants, especially Baptism and taking the Sacrament.  I felt the power of the Priesthood.  I learned to pray, really pray.  I witnessed miracle after miracle, just like the ones I read about in the scriptures.  My testimony of the restored gospel was strengthened and deepened to a new level.  I have learned about the enabling power of the Atonement, as well as the redemptive power.  I have found peace during conflict and faith during times of fear.  I have seen God's hand in my life, over and over.  My belief that there is a bigger plan for us has been proven time and time again (as well as my belief that God has a sense of humor).  I have learned new uses for paper airplanes, pepper and dish soap and plastic cups.  I have laughed and laughed.  I have felt the Spirit work through me, and honestly, that is one of the best feelings in the world.  I get to be a missionary for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and a representative of Jesus Christ.  I have learned and grown and smiled and cried until I was completely exhausted, and then I found strength in my Savior and kept going.  I am truly grateful for 2104.  

I am also really excited for 2015.  Seeing how fitting the last two years themes have been, this one makes me really happy.  I have prayed and pondered and then chalked it:

My hopes for 2015 include more joy in the service of my Savior, not just as a missionary, but in developing a life long habit of finding joy in His service.  I have 9 more months with His name on my chest and I want to make the very most of them, and then continue to make the most of my life. Because I don't just owe Him 18 months, as I learned this year, I owe Him everything.

This video is to the song, "I'll never be the same" and the words couldn't be more perfect.  I cried making this video, because my heart is so full with love for the people in it.  Thank you, and if you're not in the video, thank you also, because sometimes the things that mean the most aren't captured by my camera(:

    

Come, Come, ye Saints

The summer before my Sophomore year of High School, I was lucky enough to be able to spend some time in Wyoming, in a pioneer dress, pushing and pulling a handcart.  The first night we were there, it became very stormy, and we gathered in the luggage trailers to watch our tents blow across Wyoming.  As we stood in these trailers, we began to sing this Hymn.  As we sang the words, "gird up your loins, fresh courage take, our God will never us forsake", I felt the power of our words and knew that those before us had found strength in this hymn, just as we did.  In that small trailer, standing shoulder to shoulder with other wet teenagers, the Spirit testified to me that throughout my life, these words would apply to me.

Okay, so I wrote that first paragraph in June... It is now October... Maybe one day I will finish this post.  This song is so incredibly sacred to me, I don't even know where to begin.  On March first of this year I wrote this in my journal:


"Today with Sister H we sang 'Come, Come, Ye, Saints' We all cried.  The part that killed me was 'gird up your loins, fresh courage take, our God will never us forsake, and soon we will have this tale to tell, all is well, all is well.'  the idea of girding up, renewing my courage and remembering God, then knowing soon these days will just be a tale to tell, of tale of all being well.  Now matter what anyone says, where I serve or live or anything else.  All is well."

That day in Wyoming and that day in North Carolina this song changed my perspective.  I want to share with you some of my thoughts regarding yesterday in this perspective.

On October 13, 1996 my life changed.  First, let me say this with all the energy of my heart, ALL IS WELL.  Seriously.  I love my life, and that is largely because of what happened 18 years ago.  My earthly mom became my heavenly mom.  My mom passed away.  But something I have learned from my dad is that this is not a tragedy.  It is the greatest blessing my Heavenly Father ever gave me.  It gave me perspective on life, on family and on God and my Savior.  Because of this day and everyday since, I know God lives.  Tragedies do not deny His existence, they prove it.  The very fact that joy and tragedy coexist proves to me that there is a God, that He loves us and sends us blessings.
The first and biggest blessing that came are these people:

 My Daddy.  He teaches me about life, about hard days and good days.  He is my very best friend and that is largely because he and I shared losing my mom and more importantly shared finding my mom together.

My Mom.  While she may not be the one who gave me life, she is definitely the one who has showed me how to live it.  She and I have had ups and downs like all moms and daughters, but she is my mom.  She loves me and I love her.  We laugh together and she is one of my biggest supporters as I serve the Lord.  I hope one day to be like her. 

These kids.  Goodness I love them.  Jared is my hero, to me, he exemplifies everything that the Stripling Warriors were like.  He is good and kind and true to what he knows is right.  He is the best brother and I miss talking late at night to him about his middle school drama(:  Leah is what my Heavenly Father sent me to keep me laughing.  She is spunky and sweet and I am grateful that she and I got to spend so much time driving to and from Gymnastics.  She is becoming a beautiful young lady, who will do and does much good.  Jessica...sweet Smess.  She taught me how to love.  She taught me what it means to love and helps me recognize charity.  She is the perfect addition to our crazy sibling gang.  I love her.  These three are my best friends and biggest fans.  I love them and am so grateful that God blessed me with them, a blessing only possible through my moms death. 

My mom.  She gave me life and that is something I will forever be grateful for, but more then that she is serving alongside me.  The sweetest part of being a missionary is knowing that I have help from beyond the veil, I have her help.  I am grateful for the examples of two missionary mothers, earthy and heavenly.   

Three crazy extended families.  How lucky am I?  I have six of the best grandparents in the world who love me.  Together I have over 160 people who love me, who cheer me on and who teach me of Jesus Christ.  They show me what true strength is and why eternal families are going to be a blast.  99 of them I would not have had if my family hadn't gone through some hard things.

I think the biggest blessing of it all however is my relationship with the Savior.  He is the only reason I can say that all is well.  It is.  Just like the song teaches, "soon we will have this tale to tell, all is well."  18 years ago my mom died.  15 years ago I got a new mom.  14 years ago I gained an example. 12 years ago I got a best friend and adventure sidekick.  9 years ago I got a best friend and snuggle buddy.  8 years ago I got a pacemaker.  4 years ago I got a new start at a new school.  1 year ago I got a white envelope that changed my life.  9 months ago I left my family for the first time.  1 month ago I left them again.  Because of Him, this is all a tale to tell, and not just a tale, but a happy victorious tale.  A tale of joy, of eternal families, of repentance, of change, of hope and love.  A tale that I am totally in love with.  My story is my very favorite because I am not the star, my Savior is.  Through Him I find the strength to do all things, hard and easy.  Jesus is the Christ.  He is the only way, and as we walk His path we find the strength like those pioneers who crossed the plains so long ago to say All is Well.  All is Well.  As we gird our loins with strength and take courage all truly is well.


Here is a link to this song!
https://www.lds.org/music/library/hymns/come-come-ye-saints?lang=eng
And a neat discussion about the history behind it!
http://www.mormonchannel.org/history-of-hymns/16

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Dear Violet

Dear Violet,
Eight years ago today I had my pacemaker placed.  What a crazy ride it has been since then.  Yesterday as I visited you, the sweetest two year old who just had a very similar, but more intense surgery, I reflected on this journey.  Now my emotions are a little extreme tonight as I come out of another (minor) surgery, but I couldn't let today past without writing these thoughts.  I know your just two, but maybe one day this will matter to you, maybe not.

Having my pacemaker placed changed my whole life.  Today as I was going over medical history with a nurse before they removed a tumor from my hand, she asked me, "if you knew all that you know now about what would happen after you got your pacemaker, would you do it again?"  I had to think for only a second before answering yes.  I would.  Here are some of the things I have learned:
God gives hard things to people who are tough enough.
The only way you are tough enough is through the Atonement of Jesus Christ
When you fell like blessings are being denied you because of your situation, just hold on, the blessings will come more abundantly then you could ever imagine.
The very best medicine is laughing
Let your family love you
It is scary sometimes, remember your Heavenly Fathers words, "Be not afraid, only believe" and "Fear not little flock"
The priesthood is powerful, seriously.
So is prayer
When you hurt, when they have to replace parts of your device, when you get poked or shocked remember that your Savior has felt it all.  Turn to Him, that is where you will find peace.
This is not a punishment, but rather an opportunity to receive choice blessings from a Father in Heaven who loves you.

Sweet Violet, by the time you are old enough to understand this, you will have no idea of who
I am, but I will always remember you.  I think that maybe our Heavenly Father asks two year olds to fight the toughest battles, but guess what?  We will win our battles.  And one day, we will be resurrected, without pacemakers, but I think I might want to keep my scar, it reminds me of who I am and of my Savior.

As I painted your nails, made you giggle and fed you I enjoyed every minute of your beautiful smile.  Keep smiling, keep praying, keeping sharing your sass.  You have an amazing family, thanks for sharing your mom with me for more then one trip to and night spent at Duke.  If you ever doubt Gods love, look at your family, they are truly Christlike.

You're in for a tough ride little one, just buckle in and laugh through it all.  There are more happy days then sad to come, more nights spent in a happy place then in a hospital bed, more opportunities to learn and grow.  More joy to be found in Gods plan for you.  I love you, you are tough, you are part of the great pacemaker club and you are a daughter of God, and really? does anything else matter?
I love you!
Love, Sister Jacobson(:

P.S. I have found lots of peace in this quote:

“From the limited perspective of those who do not have knowledge, understanding, or faith in the Father’s plan—who look at the world only through the lens of mortality with its wars, violence, disease, and evil—this life can seem depressing, chaotic, unfair, and meaningless. …
“Many do not appreciate that under His loving and comprehensive plan, those who appear to be disadvantaged through no fault of their own are not ultimately penalized. …
“There are many kinds of challenges. Some give us necessary experiences. Adverse results in this mortal life are not evidence of lack of faith or of an imperfection in our Father in Heaven’s overall plan. The refiner’s fire is real, and qualities of character and righteousness that are forged in the furnace of affliction perfect and purify us and prepare us to meet God.” -Elder Cook

We Meet Again as Sisters

okay, confession, I don't think I knew this song even existed until three minutes ago. But, hey, lds.org is great like that and has an awesome search feature and all of the hymns have a music and vocals feature so we can learn new songs and find new blog titles to match the thoughts in your head. See, the church really can solve all problems(:


Today on my Facebook I saw something that hit me hard. It was this:

In case those words are too small for you, here is Elder Hollands letter to you.

Dear Sisters:As the general women’s meeting approaches, I have thought a lot about you. I feel a tremendous sense of gratitude for the women in our families, our Church, and our communities. You all have your own needs and concerns, yet you reach out so compassionately to those around you. That is the true mark of discipleship.Life is not easy. Challenges can seem everlasting, but whatever your burdens—and no matter how frequent your challenges—Jesus Christ understands you. He can heal you from the wounds of life and help you bear your burdens. I hope and pray that our meeting together on September 27 will help you feel Christ’s true love for you. I will see you there.
Okay, how awesome is that? An apostle of the Lord, a special witness of Jesus Christ invited you and all of the women you know to the General Women's Meeting this Saturday. It is at 6:00 p.m. mountain daylight time (that means 8:00 EDT)

As I read Elder Hollands words I was overcome with a sense of awe. As women, we are powerful. Something that I struggled with when I first came out on a mission was the transition from young womens to Relief Society. I loved being part of young womens. I was part of something powerful, something with so much potential and ability to do good. As I attended the first General Women's meeting in March, I realized that that power and potential was not about being 12 to 18. It was about being a woman, a Daughter of God. Reading Elder Hollands letter I immediately thought about the numerous women in my life who exemplify this. I am truly honored and humbled to be able to join the throng of women and girls who gather this Saturday to worship, to love, and to feel God's love. I echo Elder Hollands promise that as we gather, burdens will be lifted.

As you listen to these messages on Saturday I hope that you will follow the promptings you receive to share your thoughts and the message of God's love. This meeting of sisters extends beyond just latter day Saint women and to all of God's daughters. Gather the women you love and admire and share this night with them and keep sharing your knowledge and goodness, because together, we will make all of the difference.

If you would like to attend with Sister Eastwood and I, we will be at the Morrisville meetinghouse at 8:00 p.m. or join us for Ice Cream before at 7.

6011 McCrimmon Parkway
Morrisville, North Carolina
(If that is a little too far for you, just know I will be thinking of you often as I watch(: )


here is that song: It is worth reading the words(:
https://www.lds.org/music/library/hymns/we-meet-again-as-sisters-women?lang=eng


Two articles about the broadcast! Read and share!
https://www.lds.org/church/news/leaders-hope-general-womens-meeting-strengthens-sisterhood?cid=HPWE092414438&lang=eng
https://www.lds.org/church/events/september-2014-general-womens-meeting?cid=HPTU092314434&lang=eng

Be Not Afraid (not a song today, I get bored easily...)

Ready for some crazy adventure stories?
Sister Eastwood and I pretty much are adventure magnets(:  From frogs on the windshield, crazy old men, bike crashes, allergic reactions, riding in shopping carts, getting pulled over for not having our lights on all the way to last nights emergency room visit I absolutely love having her as my companion(:  Today on Facebook she challenged me to share my favorite scripture.  Here it is:

I love this short reminder.  I first fell in love with this verse and story during the summer of 2013.  As I served on seminary council we prayed to choose a theme for the year and this was one of the choices.  As I knelt in the forest of American Fork canyon I knew that this needed to be the theme, not just for that school year, but for me, for everything that was to come.  In that school year my whole future life plan changed.  I decided to serve a mission, to go to BYU and really decided what was important to me.  This scripture ran through my mind often.  Then I went on to what was to come next and again this scripture seemed to be on my mind often as I headed to the testing center, to tough friend situations or while saying goodbye to those I love.  I found it in the forefront of my mind as I walked away from my family, as I taught my first lessons as a missionary, as I talked to strangers and knocked doors.  I found in on my mind as I visited Duke, many times.  It seemed to scream at me as I got on a plane home, and then on one back.  I found it a chant this last week as I biked 15 miles in one day up some hills.  This reminder to be not afraid comes with a bigger reminder, of why I do not need to fear, I don't have to fear because of Jesus Christ.  He makes it all okay, always.  

Yesterday was one of the sweetest days of my life.  I got to see Josh get baptized.  (That is a story for another post) Sitting in the chapel, I was reminded of the many times I repeated this scripture as I talked to him or Amy.  Now they are on their way to being eternal family, because of Jesus Christ and their belief in Him.

I found myself seeing what faith can do yesterday as I watched my incredible companion struggle through a painful contact stuck behind her eye, an unhelpful visit to the urgent care and then heading to the baptism.  I was impressed by her attitude and determination all day.  Right before the baptism she asked the Elders for a blessing and demonstrated that she had that belief.  As soon as the blessing was over, the swelling on her eye and the pain were gone.  She had that belief and that belief or faith makes things happen.  After the baptism, we headed to the ER where again she amazed me with her faith and lack of fear.  She just gritted her teeth and dealt with painful eye digging.  She has an incredible testimony of the Savior and I know that that fuels her ability to act in total faith.  The contact came out and all is well(:  We had a blast in the ER by the way(: I love this picture.

Belief is powerful.  It allows us to do hard things, like life.  Jesus is the best.  Because of Him we don't have to be afraid.  We don't have to do it alone.  Jesus will always be there, like He reminds Jairus in Mark 5, He is in charge and as we trust in Him, all things will always work out.  

Here is the video of Jairus daughter story

http://www.mormonchannel.org/bible-videos?v=1840930952001

And here is a link to my companions version of last night(:

seekingabetterworld.blogspot.com 

(the link is in the side of my blog too(: )

I Love to See the Temple

Isn't that beautiful?  Really, I love to see the temple.  The temple is the best!  Last night I was able to sit in the waiting room of this beautiful Raleigh Temple and share what I know about temples and what is possible because of them.  Temples can be scary, or maybe even weird.  I hope that I can help make them not that way as you read this!  These are some of the questions we get asked about the temple.

Why do we have temples?

This children's song teaches us why we have and attend the temple:

I love to see the temple.
I'm going there someday
To feel the Holy Spirit,
To listen and to pray.
For the temple is a house of God,
A place of love and beauty.
I'll prepare myself while I am young;
This is my sacred duty.

I love to see the temple.
I'll go inside someday.
I'll cov'nant with my Father;
I'll promise to obey.
For the temple is a holy place
Where we are sealed together.
As a child of God, I've learned this truth:
A fam'ly is forever.


We go to feel God's love
We go to meditate and find peace.
We go to promise God and receive blessings.
We go to make our families eternal, forever.
We go to serve others.
We go to show God our love.


“I think there is no place in the world where I feel closer to the Lord than in one of His holy temples.”
—President Thomas S. Monson

What happens there?  Why is it a secret?

Since the temple is the house of God, we must be clean and worthy to enter His home.  It is not secret, just sacred.  Here are some pictures of some of the rooms in the temple(:  Everything is crisp and clean and beautiful.


Some of the things that happen in the temple include the Endowment and Sealing ordinances.

Endowment
One ordinance we receive in the temple is the endowment. The word endowment means “gift” or “bestowal.” As part of this ordinance, we are taught about the purpose of life, the mission and Atonement of Jesus Christ, and Heavenly Father’s plan for His children. We gain a glimpse of what it will be like to live in His presence as we feel the peaceful atmosphere of the temple.

Sealing
Another temple ordinance is the sealing ordinance, in which husbands and wives are sealed to each other and children are sealed to their parents in eternal families. This means that if we are faithful to our covenants, our family relationships will continue for eternity. People sometimes also refer to this ordinance as “temple marriage” or “eternal marriage.”

Ordinances for the Deceased
In addition to receiving these ordinances for ourselves, we can receive them for our deceased ancestors. In this way, people who died without receiving essential ordinances such as baptism and confirmation, the endowment, and sealing have the opportunity to accept these ordinances.



I love the temple.  It brings me a peace and a strength that I can't find anywhere else.  I feel closer to my God there then anywhere else.  It is the only way to have an eternal family.  Even just visit the grounds or go into the waiting room and feel the peace that is there, then seek it out.

Here is a video of children singing this song:

https://www.lds.org/general-conference/music/2008/10?lang=eng&session=2&song=10&media=video


Here is a website about temples!  Or you can ask me any questions!  If you would like to go walk around the temple, let us know and we will happily walk with you!
https://www.lds.org/church/temples?lang=eng

Popcorn Popping!

I looked out the window and what did I see?  All these little things that make me happy!  God is so good.  Life truly is so wonderful and full of these little things that make me happy!  These "popcorn trees" are one of them.  I love seeing them (okay, this post has been in the works so long that they no longer look like this...) and all of the other beautiful flowers here!


Two of my favorite scriptures both apply here: 
2 Nephi 5:27
"And it came to pass that they lived after the manner of happiness."
Doctrine and Covenants 123:17
"Therefore, dearly beloved brethren, let us cheerfully do all things that lie in our power; and then may we stand still, with the utmost assurance, to see the salvation of God, and for his arm to be revealed."
Catch the common theme?  Happiness!  The gospel of Jesus Christ is one of absolute joy!  The happy words are in yellow, because as I read my scriptures I mark in yellow all of the happy words.  As I have done this, I have realized how the message of Jesus Christ is how to be truly happy for eternity.  This happiness comes from living the gospel principles that are taught in the Book of Mormon and from living a life patterned after the Savior's.
Okay, some of you may be wondering what this all has to do with the primary Popcorn Popping song.  I'm not entirely sure myself, so just go with it okay? It'll be an adventure(:  Mostly, I think the tie is that this song+these trees make me happy.  And so does the gospel, and sharing the gospel.
But really, happiness is found in simple things!   
Today, I found happiness in fun primary songs.
I found it in a temple sealing, families are forever
I found it in a hug from someone I admire
I found it in kind words from another
I found it in wearing a shirt I love
I found it laughing over something silly
I found it in exploding candy balls (they're the best)
I found it in singing to an elderly man
I found it in the purple vine flowers (they have a real name, I just don't know it)
I found it in my Book of Mormon
I found it on my knees at 6:30 a.m.
I found it in testifing of my Savior
I found it in faith in His plan
I found it in the ability to repent
I found it when I followed the promptings of the Spirit.
I found it in the sunshine.
I found it.
I found it when I chose too.
Yep.  That's it.  It comes down to a choice, a choice to choose to follow the Savior and to find joy in the life that you get to enjoy because of Him, and His atonement. 

"I looked out the window, and what did I see?

Popcorn popping on the apricot tree!

Spring had brought me such a nice surprise,

Blossoms popping right before my eyes.

I could take an armful and make a treat,

A popcorn ball that would smell so sweet.

It wasn't really so, but it seemed to be

Popcorn popping on the apricot tree."

Unlike the popcorn on these trees, the joy that comes from these tender mercies and in following Him is exactly what it seems to be: eternal joy.   I have found this happiness, and I choose to each day.  It is a continual process. 

"Yea, come unto Christ, and be perfected in him" Moroni 10:32
This is an invitation to find happiness.  The people of Nephi in 2 Nephi 5:27 lived in a manner of happiness because they were coming unto Christ and making and keeping covenants.  In D&C 123:17 we are told that as we do all things in our power, cheerfully, that we can then stand still and see the miracles.  It is a choice.  Choose to be happy.  Choose to come unto Christ.  You can do it, I know you can.  It is hard, but I promise, through the Atonement of Jesus Christ, all things are possible, including you being happy.  Turn to Him, get on your knees. ask for help, then get up and find the joy.  What makes you happy?  Share it with me!  Share it with your family!  Share it with your friends!  Share it on your social network!  Share the little things that make you happy and don't forget to share the joy in coming unto Christ.
Will you choose to follow Him? 
Will you choose His joy?
 I hope so.  I know you can!

here is the link to this fun song: https://www.lds.org/music/library/childrens-songbook/popcorn-popping?lang=eng
And here is a link to a video about coming unto Christ.  I cry every time!  It is one of my absolute favorites! (it makes me happy!)
https://www.lds.org/youth/video/come-unto-christ-2014-theme-song?lang=eng

As Sisters in Zion

I am so excited for the opportunity this Saturday to take part in the historical General Women's Broadcast.  I am so excited to be able to hear the words of our leaders directly to women.  And, the best part is, is that even though I am far from several of the women and girls that I love, we will all be watching it at the same time!  I will also be able to be surrounded by many of the remarkable women I have come to love here in Apex.  It truly is remarkable to be part of such a wonderful sisterhood.
Sometimes, it is tricky to remember the divine and sacred call of womanhood.  The ideals of womanhood are attacked by the world in every aspect. However, the world needs us.
“The world has enough women who are tough; we need women who are tender. There are enough women who are coarse; we need women who are kind. There are enough women who are rude; we need women who are refined. We have enough women of fame and fortune; we need more women of faith. We have enough greed; we need more goodness. We have enough vanity; we need more virtue. We have enough popularity; we need more purity.” -Margaret D. Nadauld
The Lord has called women throughout ages to testify of Jesus Christ.  Women have a unique ability to love and to serve the way the Savior did.  There is in a woman who knows she is a daughter of God, a power that the world greatly needs.  As Sister Nadauld said, this world has enough of the women who do not know or exemplify who they are, the world needs more women of goodness and purity.  The call then comes for those of us who do know, to live what we know.  We need to be a sisterhood of women set apart from the world.  We need to be women like Ester and Abish.  Women like Mary and Martha.  These women knew who they were and whom they served, our Savior Jesus Christ. 
To me, there is so much beauty and joy that comes in serving my Savior.  There is so much beauty in my call to be a woman alongside those who I love and admire.  I am grateful for the opportunity to serve alongside the Priesthood and am grateful for that power in my life, even though it is not my role to be a Priesthood holder. 
Satan knows the power of the Sisters in Zion and so he works hard to demean our call.  He tells us that beauty is how closely we match those on magazines and television.  He tells us that motherhood and homemaking is outdated and unsatisfying.  He tells us that gentleness and kindness are signs of weakness.  Sisters, he is wrong.   The Savior tells us that beauty is found when others can see Him through us.  He tells us that the most sacred call we have is that of motherhood.  He tells us that service to others is our role.  He begs us to turn to Him, to serve His children, to strengthen the world with the goodness we have been given.  He begs us to pray, to study His words and to have faith.  He promises as He did to those women in the New Testament, who turned to Him for healing, that He will heal us, He will make us enough.  No matter what the world says, Jesus Christ will make us more then enough through the Atonement. 

"The errand of angels is given to women; And this is a gift that, as sisters, we claim"

I cannot think of a more sacred calling then that of the errand of angels.  The Savior loves women, He trusts women and as we turn to Him in faith and claim this gift, we will have the power to bring His goodness to this world which so desperately needs Him.  

"As sisters in Zion, we'll all work together"

We must work together, we must strengthen each other.   More then just the women I love will be part of this broadcast, women all over the world.  Imagine the goodness that will come as each of us as women of God, seek to be better.  Imagine those who will know Jesus Christ simply by knowing you as you live worthy of your call to be a Sister in Zion.  I am grateful for knowing that I am a daughter of a Heavenly Father and that He loves me and I love Him.  I am grateful for women who exemplify their call as Sisters in Zion, for those who I am now serving with, for those who I have looked up to my whole life, for friends who support me, but most importantly, for my mothers, who have each played a unique role in teaching me of the errand of angels.  I am grateful to know that Satan is wrong and that womanhood is beautiful and powerful. I hope you will join me Saturday evening with women all over the world.  Here is a link to watch it! https://www.lds.org/general-conference/how-to-view-live?lang=eng

here is the link to listen to this beautiful song!  https://www.lds.org/music/library/hymns/as-sisters-in-zion-women?lang=eng&cid=email-shared

We'll Bring the World His Truth

In the last week, three of my very best friends, as well as many, many other friends received mission calls.  I have also done some serious reflecting on my friends who are serving in every continent but Antarctica.  With that in mind, my thoughts may be extra emotional.  As missionaries, in the MTC and in the field, we sing some of the words slightly different and those are the words I am going to share, because, it is my blog and I can. (:

"We have been born, as Nephi of old, To goodly parents who love the Lord.  We have been taught, and we understand,  That we must do as the Lord commands."

The Lord commanded that this work will go forth and cover the earth at a faster pace then ever before.  It is.  The work is hastening and to be part of that is incredible.  To be part of this army of missionaries, not only those who wear name tags, but with members!  I love being part of this army, and often, I get discouraged, then I remember that all over the world, my friends are doing similar things.  And more importantly, I am reminded everyday that Heavenly Father is so involved in this work because it is His work, I am just His messenger.  And like Nephi, I have been born to goodly parents, and I am grateful for them.

"We have been saved for these latter days, To build the kingdom in righteous ways. We hear the words our prophet declares:"Let each who's worthy go forth and share."

These words changed my life.  It was an answer to my prayers in a way I was not expecting.  Our beloved prophet said,
"I am pleased to announce that effective immediately, all worthy and able young men who have graduated from high school or its equivalent, regardless of where they live, will have the option of being recommended for missionary service beginning at the age of 18, instead of age 19. . . .
As we have prayerfully pondered the age at which young men may begin their missionary service, we have also given consideration to the age at which a young woman might serve. Today I am pleased to announce that able, worthy young women who have the desire to serve may be recommended for missionary service beginning at age 19, instead of age 21."
Almost eighteen months ago, our prophet declared that each whose worthy should go forth and share.  Thousands have answered the call, and as I serve with these worthy young men and women, I am honored and so grateful to build the kingdom.  To those of you who recently got your calls, I love you.  I am so excited for you to join me in this army.  Heavenly Father has called you, to be yourself and change the world in the areas you have been called to serve in.  To those of you who are not in a place where you can serve as full time missionaries, you have the same charge.  We need you to reach out to those who you are thinking about and open your mouths.  I promise that the words will come, they always do.  Pray for yourself and for those you wish to share the gospel with, and He will provide opportunities and words. 

"We know His plan, and we are prepared, Increase our knowledge through study and prayer. Daily we'll learn for now we are called, To take the gospel to all the world."

There is power in study and prayer. And daily is key.  Studying daily increases our ability to fight Satan and to take this gospel.  We do know His plan, and that plan involves all of us returning to live with Him as families.  He is hastening this work, and it is not a temporary program.  He has just begun the hastening and it will continue until our Savior comes again.  You are prepared for the work He needs you to do.  Study, pray, and then take the gospel to where you are called, be it Italy, Korea, Chile, Nebraska, North Carolina, Czech Republic, Guatemala, or to your neighbor, coworker,
or family member.    He has prepared you to share, as well as them to receive.  Trust in that. 

"We are as the army of Helaman.  We have been taught in our youth.  And we are now the Lord's missionaries, To bring the world his truth."

None of us is exempt from this.  We are His missionaries.  He has trusted us with His children.  We have strength as full time missionaries and we are even stronger through members.  We are His missionaries and we are bringing the world His truth.  Are you ready?  If you are not to the point where you feel you can open your mouth, pray.  When I first came out here I told my companion that I wasn't sure how to do most anything missionaries do, but that I did know how to pray and that I would always be willing to pray.  This is true for all of us.  Prayers lead to miracles and missionary work is really just miracle work.  Pray for the missionaries you know and especially in your area.  Pray for them by name and ask them who they are teaching that you can pray for.  They will be more then happy to provide names, I promise(: And, more importantly, they and those they teach will feel those prayers.

The Lord has called a larger army of Helaman then ever before.  To those just called, be excited.  And be ready to wear this name tag and share what you know.  It is exciting work.  And with this call to go and wear a name tag comes the call for those who are not at home.  Missionary work is best done through you.  Reach out to your friends, open your mouth, pray and most importantly love everyone around you.  Love is the principle behind this work.  It is all about love.  It starts and ends with the love Heavenly Father has for His children and He will bless you with that love.  I love you all, go bring your corner of the world this truth of the Restoration. 

Teach Me to Walk in the Light

Okay, so I guess it would have made more sense if this was my first post, but the second will have to work.  I can not sing or hear this song and not cry.  This song will forever and always make me think of my Dad.  This is the song he has sung to me as a lullaby my whole life.  I love that I was raised in a gospel centered home where I learned how to walk in the light of my Savior.  Now, I am learning to walk in that light in a different place on the other side of the country where I can't just call my dad.  I am grateful for the truths that I learned in my home and from this song as I serve here in Apex.

Teach me to walk in the light of his love; Teach me to pray to my Father above; Teach me to know of the things that are right; Teach me, teach me to walk in the light.

I love being able to talk to my Heavenly Father.  Prayer is the often the only way I get through the day.  I pray from the minute I wake up in the morning until I go to sleep at night.  I pray as I go talk to people.  I pray as I search my scriptures for answers, I pray seriously all day.  And the best part, He always answers me.  Often, He answers me in ways I was not expecting (like the fact that I am on a mission) or I am learning that often the answer to a prayer is a "no" which always leads to a better answer then mine.  I am so grateful for prayer and that I was taught to pray! I love knowing that He loves me and I do know that!  I am grateful that I was raised to know what is right and that I have the gift of the Holy Ghost to continue to show me and tell me what is right. 

Come, little child, and together we'll learn, Of his commandments, that we may return,  Home to his presence, to live in his sight--Always, always to walk in the light.

My parents were wonderful and I am grateful to them on so many levels for teaching me how to return my Heavenly home.  As a missionary, I feel like this verse is also my Heavenly Father singing to me and those I am teaching and surrounded by.  He invites all of us to come unto Him through Jesus Christ and to keep the commandments.  His greatest desire is to have all of us return to His presence, where we can always walk in His light.  How wonderful will that be?  To always be in the light of our Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ? I know I can not wait for that opportunity.  That knowledge gives me so much hope and that is the hope we all have the responsibility to share.  He wants all of His children to know how they can return to Him.

Father in Heaven, we thank thee this day, For loving guidance to show us the way.  Grateful, we praise thee with songs of delight! Gladly, gladly we'll walk in the light.

 What a wonderful promise this is! I am so grateful to my Heavenly Father.  I am so so blessed and so grateful to Him.  He does lovingly guide as we let Him, and doing it His way is the best way.  I am grateful to my Heavenly Father.  I am grateful to walk in His light even when everything should be dark, He is the light.  He is my light and I do praise Him.  I know His way is the best way, and that through prayer and obedience we are able to walk in His light.  I love my Heavenly Father and His son Jesus Christ.  I love knowing of them and I am grateful for the power of the Holy Ghost in my life.  I know that as we walk in His light, all things will work out. I will gladly walk in His light here on earth until that day when I will be able to always walk in His light!

Here is the link to watch the Mormon Tabernacle choir sing this
song!
https://www.lds.org/general-conference/music/2012/04?lang=eng&session=4&song=3&media=video

I Know That My Redeemer Lives

This last week I have gotten to bike all over beautiful Apex, North Carolina.  It really is beautiful and I often feel like I should be in a movie because I didn't know they actually painted houses bright colors! I love it!  I have done lots of thinking on my bike and often the hymn, I Know That My Redeemer Lives is playing in my head as angels push me up hills.  I love this song! I do know that my Redeemer lives and want to share with you some of the things this song has helped me realize this week.

"I know that my Redeemer Lives, what comfort this sweet sentence gives!"

This sentence really does give me so much comfort!  Comfort in knowing that I will live with my loved ones again as perfect, resurrected beings, comfort in knowing that I am never alone, comfort in knowing that when I am at my lowest, He has been there right beside me, comfort in knowing that because of His wondrous sacrifice, returning to live with my Heavenly Father is possible!  Mostly comfort in knowing that because He overcame all things, no matter what trials come in my life, I can find such joy and happiness now, and I do, through my Redeemer, Jesus Christ.

"He lives to silence all my fears; He lives to wipe away my tears"

One of my very favorite scriptures is Mark 5:36, "Be not afraid, only believe."  I am scared of lots of things.  I am scared of some of these new things I am being asked to do, as well as fear as to what is going to come next in my life, but through Jesus Christ, these are all silenced, many of these have been silenced as I biked this week.  He has dried my tears and He will continue to do so.

"He lives, my kind, wise, heavenly friend; He lives and loves me to the end."

He is my friend.  He is my best friend.  Because He knows exactly what I am feeling He knows exactly how to comfort me and that makes Him the perfect friend.  He does live and He does love me.  He knows all of my mistakes and imperfections and He loves me anyway.  How wonderful it is to know that someone loves you so much that He was willing to do anything, including suffer and die for you.

"Oh, sweet the joy this sentence gives: I Know that My Redeemer Lives!"

This is ultimate joy.  I do know this.  I know with everything that I am that Jesus Christ lives.  I know He is my redeemer as well as the redeemer of the world.  I know that that He is the son of God and the only way by which salvation is possible.  I know that He loves me.  I know He understands me and I know that I can allow Him to heal me.  I know through Him I can repent and feel relief.  I know that He will always comfort me.  I know He created the earth under the direction of His father.  I know that He walked on earth and taught and performed miracles, in Jerusalem as well as in the Americas.  I know He appeared to Joseph Smith.  I know that through the Book of Mormon I come to know Him, not just know of Him, but know Him.   I know that He is my older brother.  I know that He is the only perfect person to ever live, and as we follow His example and repent daily we become more like Him.  I know that He lives and this gives me so much joy.  Jesus Christ lives. I know it.

I Know that My Redeemer Lives!

Here is the link to listen to this beautiful song!
https://www.lds.org/music/library/hymns/i-know-that-my-redeemer-lives